Revisiting The Past

As expressed in my previous post I miss that damn city.

Due to visa trouble in the past I couldn’t actually be sure that The Land Of The Free And The Home Of The Brave (humility has never been a virtue of the USA) wanted me back, so ever since I left 20 months ago I’ve thought that I couldn’t go back there. That it was off limits, which is what has made it so damn hard.
But thanks mainly to a wonderful friend’s persuasive powers and the fact that the restaurant where I used to work might be closing in a couple of months, I decided that now was the time to give it a shot. So I bought myself a ticket, got on a plane and hoped for the best. Oh, and did I mention that I was just a bit nervous?...
But to my own disbelief I went straight through immigration. Thank God for Homeland Security!
Suddenly I was back and it was as if I’d never left. It was like coming home.
Only one person knew that I was coming and I caught the rest by surprise. The expressions on their faces were priceless.
Walking into that restaurant at 9.30 on a busy Saturday night is something that I’ve visualized ever since I left but never dared to believe would actually come true. And there I was. Part of that big old dysfunctional family again. I got my ‘Haa-aay!’ back!
So I spent eight amazing days with wonderful friends in the one city that holds my heart.
It’s not that I don’t like my life in Denmark. I just miss New York. I want both. And for those eight days I had it. I guess that sometimes you can actually have your cake and eat it too.
But of course it had an expiration date.
Good-byes are never easy and this one was no exception. If anything, this little trip back to the past has made me even more aware of what I had in that city, and that I am no longer part of it even though it will always be a part of me.

Now I’m back to my life in Copenhagen and I am back in school. And I’m happy with that. I’m excited to start the new semester and just knowing that I can go back to New York and visit sometimes makes it a whole lot easier not having it in my everyday life.